Depression Symptoms

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How Setting Boundaries Helped Me Heal

My getting depressed after the cancer operation almost did us in. It was the blow that forced my wife to remind me of the boundaries I couldn’t afford to ignore. I had been in high spirits for the operation and right through the recovery period. My wife and I had been especially close during that time. I had healed, emotionally and physically, with her support and love. We had been [...] Read the rest»

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The Delusions of Depression

I’ve had several moments in recovery when I realized that things I assumed to be true were really delusions of depression. Some were long-held beliefs about myself, others were briefly held convictions that were too far from reality to maintain for long. I know that psychiatrists wouldn’t call these delusions of the sort linked to psychosis, but when I recall how often they dominated my mind, I need a strong [...] Read the rest»

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My Top 5 Movies on Depression

Movies about the realities of depression aren’t usually popular or profitable. As a result, there aren’t many that probe the condition deeply and honestly. The five films in this post are the best I’ve seen for the realism and dramatic power of their stories and the excellence of acting and production. There are many more good movies I’ll write about, but these come to mind first. I hope you’ll add [...] Read the rest»

Screaming Out my Pain

Depression and Anger: A Destructive Partnership

It took me a long time to understand the connection between depression and anger. One psychiatrist I visited would often ask a simple question toward the end of a session: How’s your anger? I couldn’t understand why he asked. I hadn’t been talking about anger. Depression was my problem. I’d usually respond with a puzzled, Fine. I’d leave his office wondering why he had asked about anger but soon put [...] Read the rest»

Inability to Escape Depression

If You Can’t Escape Depression, You Can Try Making Do

It's hard to escape depression when it dominates your mind. The illness has many faces, but its most visible one is your own. You see it everywhere because you can't stop thinking about what's wrong with you. The illness is filtering out everything that would disturb your isolation - like brighter feelings, hope, the reaching out of a loved one, self-confidence, the energy to connect with people. It keeps your mind roiling with your flops, dumb mistakes, broken relationships, and acid self-contempt. When you're well, you can lose yourself in the daily flow of living, but when you're depressed you never lose yourself. Read the rest»

Depression and Worry: Tales of Mere Existence

I hope you enjoy these classics. They’re good notes to end the summer on. 1. How to Cope with Depression Lev Yilmaz: If you’re feeling down, go to your Co-Workers, Elders, Family and Friends for help. They are sure to give you great, great advice… 2. Things I Have Worried About Lev Yilmaz: Just a few things I have worried about over the years… Watch more Tales of Mere Existence Read the rest»

Depression Is a Free Fall in Slow Motion

Once my kids pulled me with them up to a water slide. I don’t like sliding through winding tubes and hadn’t done it before. But I couldn’t back out of it once I was standing in a dense line at the top of a 50-foot high platform. Nowhere to go but down. So off I went, speeding into a panic of flailing arms as I desperately tried to keep myself [...] Read the rest»

Fractures and Changes

How Does Depression Change You? Can You Ever Be Yourself Again?

Have you ever wondered if multiple episodes of depression change you so much that you’ll never get back to your old self? Most people I hear from say: I want to be myself again. That’s their definition of recovery. Can it happen? I found an interesting discussion about long-term changes in an online journal called Medicographia. The editors posed a question to psychiatrists and researchers from around the world and printed their responses together. Here’s the question: Is the patient really the same after a major depressive episode? Read the rest»